Clearly.....

Im over this semester..... Reese and Christian completely brought that
to light....... Covin is a clown Ilh....

But truly im over this semester that's all I gotta say for now.....
--
JaeDaKiD is on his come up

Uncomfortable with Me

were now at the end of the semester
ive lost 10 pounds and even though im proud of myself
im still uncomfortable with me.....
its almost sickening but its all that i know
since ive lost my favorite sweater(my safety blanket)
its hard for me to wear fitted shirts by themself
even if i look good in them....
i changed what i was wearing today idk how many times this morning.....
im constantly pullin and tugging and my arms are getting tired...


My girl Jenny and I had a good talk today about how i felt like im selling out
it began with a quote she had in her away
"ive seen people sell weed slower than you sold your soul"

basically i feel like in order to get work
i have to lose weight..... being at that last audition
and me being the only one 6 foot 3 weighing in at a whopping 271
clearly makes me not able to be marketed.....
why hire someone overweight with talent
when you kan hire someone with the look and talent for the same price
i just feel like why should i have to obtain and maintain something ill never be
and that im not sure i even wanna be
but then again i wanna work in this industry
which when you think about it based on looks and appearance
i mean talent is always a great thing but if u can do just enough
your image could be what propels u forward......


i love dance so much but i feel like
im not being takin seriously
and when it comes to dance ive always had to prove myself
kuz i dont fit the "Mold" of a dancer




after talkin to Jenny http://losanjelous.blogspot.com/
i learned everything kan be manipulated
and im gonna find a way to make the mold fit me
kuz im tired of this self consciousness
and this blatant uncomfort


i guess i just gotta work on me internally ass well as externally
untill i found out where i wanna be

Glass Of Kool-aid, Jeff Buckley and a Cold breeze

I haven't posted anything in a while
And although I haven't written anything
Or haven't had anything exciting recently
I still felt the need to post

I just whipped up a beat batch of Kool-aid....
Laying in my bed
while the cool breeze brushes through my window
Listening to Everybody here wants you by Jeff Buckley.....

Wellp im outro
Just wanted to assure you
That I haven't fallen off earth ;)

JaedaKid.....

So I Didn't....

Really get to elaborate on the happenings of the V.N.H.S. Afterparty....
give u the tea quickly...
"I aint even gotta say much.... ima sum it up"

Well it was more like a kickback
They kame w/ the drinks and it was on....
Everybody takes shots
Sour apple smirnoff
And for some reason they feel the need to give me
The biggest shot glass but it was all good.....
Quinn has her shot and starts running around and dancing and shit it was
all good......
So me and maya were sitting together
(I think she was in my lap)
When we hear "aaaaaaahhh!!!!!"
We look over and quinn has her head down
And Joe goes "it Burns....."
So we were like wtf....
Apparently Quinn threw up in his face....
"My Eyes..... My Eyes...!!!"
Hahaahhahahhah
So Maya starts Dieing laughing and I follow
Then before we know Joseph drank 15 shots or so
And was sloppy drunk
He Kissed me and I believe Mishy
Were Maya Found it necessary to insist He's bi when he's drunk.......
(he kissed a girl and he liked it! Lmao)
Then Jenny wanted to give us some "Pizza"
So she went and prepared it
I only planned on taking a slice
Considering I was already drinking.....
But I ended up taking 3
So I was gone....
Then Christine kept grunting and making funny faces
The night was just comedy
Maya is like the Ultimate Enhancer

Although other funny things happened
I felt those were the only ones of importance
Wellp I gotta go kuz im late for class as it is
But as my life and issues around it progress
Ill continue to keep you updated

Dueces
Words of JaeDaKid

Yesterday All Together Now

So the day began w/ the auditions
The Jazz I bombed miserably.... lmao

Then after we were kut..... miiko treated me and jackie
to a meal @ Islands where we seen Lena :)
Once we left we Witnessed a Car accident....
We went back to the hip hop audition
Where I slayed.....
And although I wasn't chosen
it was nice to see what I needed to work up to
I feel that I don't have far to go
And I might possibly have to work on my image -__-

After that I went home and got ready for VNHS dance show
Great show then the after Party where I got fucked up

Tonight Was fun

So the costumes came together quite nicely
minus the hat
I Had so much fun

Kinda disappointed that it was a latin Hispanic event,
Nothing against Hispanic trannies. I was just hoping for something a bit
more diverse......I gave to the best of my ability and earned a couple
of coins in the process....

I was glad I met some new people Michael, Ryan, and Josh they're fucking
hilarious.... and ofcourse always see old friends like Miss Gia/Ryan and
not to mention Peaches who gave an oh to beat performance ......

Talked to a sexy latin dancer named abraham who I totally wanted to take
down.... he was just a touch to attractive... I forgot how much fun the
arena can be so a visit is in order.....

Well its 2:50am and im currently on the bus almost home so that's
prettymuch my night.... very exciting

Goodnight Peeps

Textbook Relationship

U leave me in your locker
Like a raggedy ass text book
I don't ever see the moonlight
But every now and then I get an hour period
Were you flip through my pages during the day
im slammed against desks
Left branded and tagged
handed down to friends
Never handled w/ care
My Pages are torn
But you kant return me till the end of the semester
While I fester with scorn
My so called education pours out on to the ground
Because your floored by the latest subject
Thirsting to take the new class
but can't even pass this one
You should be takin me seriously
See im the prerequisite
That u can't further progress
Without getting me clearly
But its okay this semester is almost at an end
Nearly
And I could give a fuck whether you fail me
U never did your homework
Never read assigned chapters fully
Just scanned through them
Like you could fool me
Like generic info could ever truly
Get you through the course
But since u wanna be lazy
Ill let my assessments play you like a whore
And when you flunk after failing my final test
Feel Free to check off your initials
before exiting the classroom door

By JaeDaKiD