Its Been too long....

Yesterday was Uyi's Bday dinner it was koo.... then after I got stupid
blown w/ Chris Tierrah Antonio and perisse.... but enough about all
that.... lol

So while I haven't been blogging I've been....
Working on me and so far im loving everything...
From the choices I make in life to my physical
Im pretty content and I wanna strive for more.
Im gonna work as hard as I can to better me and
How I feel about me.....
Hopefully in doing that everything will just follow...
As far as dance I haven't had the time or money
To get into it as I've wanted but hopefully ill be able to.
I've been teaching @ a skool for some coins but
Nothing serious....
I guess im @ a point where im just happy with everything.
Although I don't know what I want for my future
Im happy with the way my present has been going
So praying only good things will be waiting for me

Sincerely,

JaeDaKid

Paris is Burning

"This is White America, and when it come to the minority especially blacks we as a people for the past 400 years are the greatest example of behavioral modification in the history of western civilization. We have had everything taken away from us and yet we have all learned how to survive. That is why in the ballroom circuit it is so obvious that if you've captured the great white way of living or looking dressing or speaking. YOU IS A Marvel! " -Paris is burning





This Documentary is such an inspiration

LAMC.....

so im currently @ Mission Bullshittin.........
im supposed to be getting ready for my final but thats not happening
pretty much just lookin at dance videos etc
while tierrah and perisse type up their paper
which i probably shoulda done but just didnt kare at this point
im awaiting this shit to be over so i can go home
kuz Lamc is mad played out this point.....

well i guess were about to push
so ill post the next time i can.......


dueces

JAEDAKID!!!!!!

Shows Over.... Now what...... Btw Jayden is here

Now that Productions over its as if i dont know what to do with my self

a whole week was just performing and i had so much fun and its done

so i know i havent been here but i am now nothing new to talk about really

but my aunt had lil jayden yes hes here btw lol

so here some super sweet pics lol

P.s. song lyrics of the moment

So glide away on soapy heelsAnd promise not to promise anymoreAnd if you come around againThen I will take, then I will take the chain from off the door

The Chain by Ingrid Michaelson

Clearly.....

Im over this semester..... Reese and Christian completely brought that
to light....... Covin is a clown Ilh....

But truly im over this semester that's all I gotta say for now.....
--
JaeDaKiD is on his come up

Uncomfortable with Me

were now at the end of the semester
ive lost 10 pounds and even though im proud of myself
im still uncomfortable with me.....
its almost sickening but its all that i know
since ive lost my favorite sweater(my safety blanket)
its hard for me to wear fitted shirts by themself
even if i look good in them....
i changed what i was wearing today idk how many times this morning.....
im constantly pullin and tugging and my arms are getting tired...


My girl Jenny and I had a good talk today about how i felt like im selling out
it began with a quote she had in her away
"ive seen people sell weed slower than you sold your soul"

basically i feel like in order to get work
i have to lose weight..... being at that last audition
and me being the only one 6 foot 3 weighing in at a whopping 271
clearly makes me not able to be marketed.....
why hire someone overweight with talent
when you kan hire someone with the look and talent for the same price
i just feel like why should i have to obtain and maintain something ill never be
and that im not sure i even wanna be
but then again i wanna work in this industry
which when you think about it based on looks and appearance
i mean talent is always a great thing but if u can do just enough
your image could be what propels u forward......


i love dance so much but i feel like
im not being takin seriously
and when it comes to dance ive always had to prove myself
kuz i dont fit the "Mold" of a dancer




after talkin to Jenny http://losanjelous.blogspot.com/
i learned everything kan be manipulated
and im gonna find a way to make the mold fit me
kuz im tired of this self consciousness
and this blatant uncomfort


i guess i just gotta work on me internally ass well as externally
untill i found out where i wanna be

Glass Of Kool-aid, Jeff Buckley and a Cold breeze

I haven't posted anything in a while
And although I haven't written anything
Or haven't had anything exciting recently
I still felt the need to post

I just whipped up a beat batch of Kool-aid....
Laying in my bed
while the cool breeze brushes through my window
Listening to Everybody here wants you by Jeff Buckley.....

Wellp im outro
Just wanted to assure you
That I haven't fallen off earth ;)

JaedaKid.....