Est. 072490

Its 1am so tech. My bday was yesterday the 24th

Im so ready for change this time
I have to make things better for me
Im allowing my perfect imperfections
Get the best of me

Like who else sabotages their own Bday
Me only me.......
I get my hopes so high up and then allow
Them to rapidly crash and burn
Im sick to my stomach with the way im living
And I just have to make it better
Because this life I lead is not worth anything
And I've become so comfortable just getting by
And I think that's the issue in itself and if I could
Just change that it could get better.....

I kant remember the last time I've even fought
For something and im just tired of giving up
And backsliding into old habits
im constantly holding bills but im finally ready to make
Change.... so the rest of the summer im gonna take the time
To really cleanse my soul kuz its aching for something more
And its time I gave it what it's needing

Sincerely JaeDaKid

Still Hungry By Sam Sparro

Because of a recommendation
made by a good friend of mine

http://misterbrandonsaysgo.blogspot.com/

I decided to listen to Sam Sparro's self titled Debut album
Which I really liked surprisingly

But in particular I fell for his song "Still Hungry"
It really spoke to me and to what I've been goin through
Recently....

I've never wanted to do anything the way I've wanted this... and that
only means im gonna have to fight for it... its gonna be hard and I've
never had to fight for anything but this is worth it... dance is the
only thing I KNOW how to do and have a passion for, an actual
passion.... I mean id much rather struggle and starve doin something I
love than prosper and being miserable doing something I loathe.....
So the rest of my summer will continue to be about bettering me cuz im
not where I should be...... Hungrily I will do whatever is necessary to
get me to the next level! KNOW THAT

Still Hungry By Sam Sparro

Sincerely,

JaeDaKiD

I've Never Felt So Hurt

By something I love.....

I try so hard to see that things kan change or that I kan be the one to
change them.... but iit hurts to know ill never work perfessionally
because of my appearance..... I've been over looked and underestimated
all my life because of this and today was the 1st reminder I've had in a
long while....... I mean I wouldn't even trip so hard if some of the
people chosen were better than me..... and some were... but there were
some people chosen for a look

I don't wanna seem bitter its just I feel for so long I feel like I've
worked twice is hard to get half as far sometimes.... and that makes it
worse.....

Ill live

Currently: Regathering My Spirits

Sincerely

JaeDaKid

Update My Life

SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO...................




sorry for the delay my phones internet no longer allows me to sign in lol
but since im back in L.A. for a few days i figured id write.....
wellp

Im Auditioning @ Disney tomorrow with Mario
i wouldnt really be tripping but like a week or two ago
i fucked up my back running -_-
so i havent danced since and im still having some pain
so i dont know how itll go but ill give to the best of my ability.......




as for me nothings REALLY been going on
just been enjoying my break, MAJORLY
Doing alot of the going out smoking in drinkin
which deserves another -_-
EX: since the 4th of july ive been home like 3 FULL
days if that which is completely Ridic.
and it wouldve been less had ive gone out
tonight and yesterday so But a bitch was tired
so i had to flake
plus i think an audition is way more important
and i need that rest
to look like im atleast performing with
some sort of decency LMAAAAAOOOOoo

"Yeaaaahhh Baaaaby" TIny



Whats in store for this week?
possibly Harry Potter
DON'T JUDGE ME

next week ill be 19 which will feel no diff from18 -_-
but the money and gifts will feel excellent


Plans for Next Semester Considering
if i should take academics kuz i kinda dont want to
if i do im only doing tues/thurs at mission


wellp as far as i kan think thats pretty much
all the random ness i have stored at this time
but soon as i have anything else ill be sure to
update my dreary life again lmao....

sincerely

JaeDaKid..... : lol