Clearly.....

Im over this semester..... Reese and Christian completely brought that
to light....... Covin is a clown Ilh....

But truly im over this semester that's all I gotta say for now.....
--
JaeDaKiD is on his come up

Uncomfortable with Me

were now at the end of the semester
ive lost 10 pounds and even though im proud of myself
im still uncomfortable with me.....
its almost sickening but its all that i know
since ive lost my favorite sweater(my safety blanket)
its hard for me to wear fitted shirts by themself
even if i look good in them....
i changed what i was wearing today idk how many times this morning.....
im constantly pullin and tugging and my arms are getting tired...


My girl Jenny and I had a good talk today about how i felt like im selling out
it began with a quote she had in her away
"ive seen people sell weed slower than you sold your soul"

basically i feel like in order to get work
i have to lose weight..... being at that last audition
and me being the only one 6 foot 3 weighing in at a whopping 271
clearly makes me not able to be marketed.....
why hire someone overweight with talent
when you kan hire someone with the look and talent for the same price
i just feel like why should i have to obtain and maintain something ill never be
and that im not sure i even wanna be
but then again i wanna work in this industry
which when you think about it based on looks and appearance
i mean talent is always a great thing but if u can do just enough
your image could be what propels u forward......


i love dance so much but i feel like
im not being takin seriously
and when it comes to dance ive always had to prove myself
kuz i dont fit the "Mold" of a dancer




after talkin to Jenny http://losanjelous.blogspot.com/
i learned everything kan be manipulated
and im gonna find a way to make the mold fit me
kuz im tired of this self consciousness
and this blatant uncomfort


i guess i just gotta work on me internally ass well as externally
untill i found out where i wanna be

Glass Of Kool-aid, Jeff Buckley and a Cold breeze

I haven't posted anything in a while
And although I haven't written anything
Or haven't had anything exciting recently
I still felt the need to post

I just whipped up a beat batch of Kool-aid....
Laying in my bed
while the cool breeze brushes through my window
Listening to Everybody here wants you by Jeff Buckley.....

Wellp im outro
Just wanted to assure you
That I haven't fallen off earth ;)

JaedaKid.....

So I Didn't....

Really get to elaborate on the happenings of the V.N.H.S. Afterparty....
give u the tea quickly...
"I aint even gotta say much.... ima sum it up"

Well it was more like a kickback
They kame w/ the drinks and it was on....
Everybody takes shots
Sour apple smirnoff
And for some reason they feel the need to give me
The biggest shot glass but it was all good.....
Quinn has her shot and starts running around and dancing and shit it was
all good......
So me and maya were sitting together
(I think she was in my lap)
When we hear "aaaaaaahhh!!!!!"
We look over and quinn has her head down
And Joe goes "it Burns....."
So we were like wtf....
Apparently Quinn threw up in his face....
"My Eyes..... My Eyes...!!!"
Hahaahhahahhah
So Maya starts Dieing laughing and I follow
Then before we know Joseph drank 15 shots or so
And was sloppy drunk
He Kissed me and I believe Mishy
Were Maya Found it necessary to insist He's bi when he's drunk.......
(he kissed a girl and he liked it! Lmao)
Then Jenny wanted to give us some "Pizza"
So she went and prepared it
I only planned on taking a slice
Considering I was already drinking.....
But I ended up taking 3
So I was gone....
Then Christine kept grunting and making funny faces
The night was just comedy
Maya is like the Ultimate Enhancer

Although other funny things happened
I felt those were the only ones of importance
Wellp I gotta go kuz im late for class as it is
But as my life and issues around it progress
Ill continue to keep you updated

Dueces
Words of JaeDaKid

Yesterday All Together Now

So the day began w/ the auditions
The Jazz I bombed miserably.... lmao

Then after we were kut..... miiko treated me and jackie
to a meal @ Islands where we seen Lena :)
Once we left we Witnessed a Car accident....
We went back to the hip hop audition
Where I slayed.....
And although I wasn't chosen
it was nice to see what I needed to work up to
I feel that I don't have far to go
And I might possibly have to work on my image -__-

After that I went home and got ready for VNHS dance show
Great show then the after Party where I got fucked up

Tonight Was fun

So the costumes came together quite nicely
minus the hat
I Had so much fun

Kinda disappointed that it was a latin Hispanic event,
Nothing against Hispanic trannies. I was just hoping for something a bit
more diverse......I gave to the best of my ability and earned a couple
of coins in the process....

I was glad I met some new people Michael, Ryan, and Josh they're fucking
hilarious.... and ofcourse always see old friends like Miss Gia/Ryan and
not to mention Peaches who gave an oh to beat performance ......

Talked to a sexy latin dancer named abraham who I totally wanted to take
down.... he was just a touch to attractive... I forgot how much fun the
arena can be so a visit is in order.....

Well its 2:50am and im currently on the bus almost home so that's
prettymuch my night.... very exciting

Goodnight Peeps

Textbook Relationship

U leave me in your locker
Like a raggedy ass text book
I don't ever see the moonlight
But every now and then I get an hour period
Were you flip through my pages during the day
im slammed against desks
Left branded and tagged
handed down to friends
Never handled w/ care
My Pages are torn
But you kant return me till the end of the semester
While I fester with scorn
My so called education pours out on to the ground
Because your floored by the latest subject
Thirsting to take the new class
but can't even pass this one
You should be takin me seriously
See im the prerequisite
That u can't further progress
Without getting me clearly
But its okay this semester is almost at an end
Nearly
And I could give a fuck whether you fail me
U never did your homework
Never read assigned chapters fully
Just scanned through them
Like you could fool me
Like generic info could ever truly
Get you through the course
But since u wanna be lazy
Ill let my assessments play you like a whore
And when you flunk after failing my final test
Feel Free to check off your initials
before exiting the classroom door

By JaeDaKiD

Virginity, At All Costs

First off........
I didn't even take the class but okay lmao

I am now at a point of desperation.....
Im an 18 yo virgin... and at all costs im ready
To give up this charade.... at first it was all cute and shit
Now its like okay enough is enough
Im turned on by most anything and its becoming
Slightly disturbing.....
I just need to get laid to ease this physical tension
Its ridiculous
But even if I had the chance I still wouldn't give it up
So its like why am I complaining

Im so disappointing
I just don't even know
What to do w/ myself anymore
Aaaaaahhhhhhh

signed a lost cause
JaeDaKiD............

An Early Morning Mess

First Off.....
I realized I was wrong

But anywhoo this is the story
I read miikos text wrong
And thought @ 10am today was Brian Friedmans master Class
It wasn't!
Turns out it was the audition for Hairspray on a Cruise
Since I was there I figured id just do it anyway.....
Terrible lmao
First off im not a jazz dancer if the combo isn't broken down
Im not gonna have it....
And since it was taught fast I didn't have a chance
Got cut in the first round hahahaahah
But I will say it was a good experience for my 1st audition
Although I looked a mess lmao.....
Plus there was way worse than me there.....

But anyways tonight around 630
Ill attempt to take the Brian Friedman Master Class
Hopefully Christine will go.....

Next saturday im actually planning for an audition
for DDO Artist Agency
Im gonna give to the best of my ability
hopefully they'll like me

Wish Me Luck.......

Im Sorry.... My Apologies

Excuse me if my being isn't perfect
Sorry im not this stepford child
That has a job is a full time student cooks cleans
And still has time for a life
I apologize for the fact that you find me useless
Im sorry I didn't like sports
So i couldn't get that all expenses paid scholarship
That would help keep your pockets fuller
Sorry I was never the child you could
brag to your friends about
Im sorry u looked to me
to be what you couldn't be when im not
Sorry I didn't graduate highschool
Sorry I don't know how to manage time money or my life
Sorry im 18 when u need me to be 25
Sorry u never had time to teach me how to drive
I apologize that we have no relationship
That we could live under the same roof and
Not have shit to say
Sorry I don't wanna stay here
Im sorry because of you're upbringing Im annoyed by you
Im sorry that I hate everything you do
Im sorry that I can't be better than you
And I apologize for trying to be me
Im sorry I like boys
So im sorry ill never have a wife
Im sorry you can't see who I am and never will
Im sorry you believed id carry on the family name
Im sorry that I bare your face
Im sorry If i don't give a fuck
Im sorry im figuring out me and don't need you to intervene w/ my
choices
Im sorry I bleed when u try and suppress my voice
And Im sorry I drink like my mother and smoke weed
My apologies for wanting nothing to do w/ you
When I need you
Im sorry for not wanting to see you
Im sorry that I feel the need to rebel
But its like hell to agree w/ you
Im sorry that im my mothers son
Im sorry if Ive inherited her depressions
Im sorry im a complete mess
And im especially sorry im an only child
So I apologize for being used to getting by
Im sorry I can't do shit for myself
Im sorry I put my emotions on this lyrical shelf
You'll never reach
Sorry im 6'3
Sorry im overweight because I over eat
And over stressed because I never sleep
Im sorry I walk this earth aimlessly
Im sorry I have no goals
But I feel sorry for you for trying to change me
I feel sorry for you trying to watch my eating
I feel sorry for you wanting me to be straight
I feel sorry for you rasing something that's the epitome of what you
hate
I feel sorry that im something you can't tame
My apologies for not wanting to be the same
Im sorry I don't want to do what you have planned
Im sorry im not perfect......
Im sorry u can't see my strength
But ill be damned
If I let you play me for worthless
By JaeDaKid

Poetry, The Incredible Hulk, and Erykah Badu

So im considering posting up some poetry
Idk tho
Like Erykah Badu
"...im an artist and im sensitive about my shit..."

But yeah ill possibly do that real soon
Perhaps today ;)

I also need to finish watching The Incredible Hulk
--
JaeDaKiD is on his come up

Weed, The Morning After & Paramore

So i just got home at like 10:20am
thought id let yall know......

plans for today include

going to estebans class
then his rehearsal.......
Then Home To the valley





last nite up until now included
Studio on ventura
Multiple Tranny's....
Mario Esteban Jacob and Lee
Downtown L.a.
Dennys
Weed
Feeling like the morning after
Paramore


overall an interesting night
well thats all the time i have

wish i could elaborate on last nights happenings
but i simply dont have the time lol

P.s Goodmonrning

and the day begins.....

like honestly soon as my day begins i kant wait for it to be over......
this tranny we dance with is wearing me out like she is way to much
i kant wait till we perform and its all over
i just wanna make my change and bounce

anywhoo
i didnt get home until about 1245 or was it 145
i cant remember and im tired
thus no jazz class for me

when is there ever jazz class for me....
hopefully victor does make ups

Last Nights Mess.....

its like 9:45a.m. im just getting home maybe 15 mins ago.....

last night was ridiculous..... lets go through my recollection of last nights comedy.......


My friend hits me up telling me if i do a performance for him ill make 100hottz so ofcourse i jumped on it kuz it only required three rehearsals.... last night was rehearsal #1. i go meet with mario and his bf(boyfriend) who had been drinkin all day lol and was fucked up before i got there..... he was comedy; i lived for it.... Then we were supposed to go to some play that bombed couldnt find it. when we found it we couldnt get in. went to dennys had a cheddar bacon and fries then bounced to the dance gig. thats when the true comedy began... Now i was under the impression that we were back up dancers for some lady's performance. we got there since im coming in late i had to be taught the previous choreography... while doing so the tranny("Lady" we were dancing for) walked out with her tits hanging out with a corsette... she was giving a lil too much then as we were dancing (He later explained) the tranny walked up to Jacob and squeezed his tit and some sort of milky fluid squirted out onto the carpet!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

lmaooooooooooooooooooo

that is what obviously exposed her to be a tranny.... kuz real fish wouldnt do that!!!
then i noticed how wide her back is and then how big her hands and feet were..... Terrible.... Mario finished teaching the guys for the day and the tranny had left me mario and jacob at her pad while she ran an "errand"(or having sex with some argentinian boy for money) so while she was gone jacob took the liberty of popping in some of her porn...... he couldnt find the remote and the porn gave the option of seeing just the sex or watching the storyline w/o sex. so we had to watch the storyline

SMMFH @ Porn storylines
and Porn Acting[k]

after that we popped in the last season of Sex and the City and chilled till she got back.... so miss tranny got back and she was a wreck..... a flustered wreck...... she talked about her sex -__- and about her penis felt "RAW" which i felt may have been a sympton of an std or something... idk about yall but i dnt want my penis to feel "RAW" i just dont feel that thats a necessary feeling.... we left and then went back to mario's bf's house from there we went to subway where i purchased 3 chocolate chip cookies for 1.25(details lol) walked back and listen to marios bf's drunk ranting which i lived for.... got back to the spot then smoked a few bowls(which i supposedly "quit" a few weeks ago. thats why i didnt wanna say quit kuz i knew id be week but i couldnt let Jacob smoke all by himself) out of a Tecate beer can. smh! although efficient none the less.... After that it was alll kinds of downhill comedy... after that we watched the Beyonce experience until i fell asleep


woke up got dressed...... came home and now im here
just to get ready for school at 1pm

UGH

its funny how i just dont go to class with such ease..... how im so quick to let something become my excuse so i dnt have to go....
but point blank i wont be attending Jazz today perhaps thursday....
then maybe i kan actuall get some of my work done....
kuz i need to

Madinahs Pussaaaayyy

lmao by request im speaking about Madinahs pussy..... hahahaha..... ily
Madinah's one of the dopest afghani rebels ive ever met. like what was i doing in HS W/O her.







But on another note ima knock out perhaps ill post something before class :)

Reese and the fact that we never record anything

ive yet to see the video of Chris SHABLAMMING in Tacobell posted..... ive been patiently waiting....
and tha fact that u say well record a video almost everyday and we dont, is upsetting get on your job Reese or ill have to take over ;)

Soooooo.......... its me bitches

Reese convinced me to make one of these.... because she's just that nosy and wants to be constantly up to date with my life... i guess i could do that much for her since she's such a lovely friend....

im really gonna try to keep up with this
kuz lord knows im doin so much extra....
wellp just an intro when i have some good shit to talk
ill be on here talkin it lol

hello blog world

this is reese. i have just created a blog for mr.aliem jiles. this post is completely irrelevant but it is the start of something amazing.


stay tuned.=]